Every day I smile as my bones break
Crack crack cracking
I wield the hammer myself
For your sake
You lied to me,
Lied to me while gently tucking hair behind my ear
Lied to me and kissed my hands
Lied through promising teeth
Promised life, then offered death
The kind of demise only I could suffer
You knew and you knew
And tumbling anchors stole my breath
Your pitiful silent face begs for absolution
As you sign the execution order with a flourish you hide behind cupped hand
There’s no time now, maybe there never was or maybe it slipped away as it conspired to fly
So set your intention and pretend not to
Pretend it won’t end me
Pretend you loved me enough
Pretend I was enough to love
Just like you said
Pretend my bones are straight and true
Just like you always do